I didn't want to write about this until after
perkk posted about it.
Joe called me yesterday to let me know that John had called him to say that Gwen was not doing well, and that it would be her last day with John. He encouraged me to call John and perhaps go with him to the vet, since I was not able to go
when Kinney passed away (since I was out of town on a business trip). I was instantly struck with my feelings about Kinney's death, but because this has been another crazy busy week at work, I had to compartmentalize my feelings away for a while and focus on my job.
When I finally got home last night, I sat down and called John. He sounded okay when I asked how he was doing, though his voice had a tinge of grief. He calmly described how Gwen has been for the last few days. If you don't recall, Gwen has been battling the same kind of cancer that Kinney had. Gwen has actually had it longer than Kinney, but John took more extensive steps to battle the illness than we took for Kinney. This gain him much valued time with her.
As he was talking I started to get choked up, going right back to the place I was in with Kinney's death. I still can't even think about it with out my vision getting blurred and my throat starting to ache. The night that I had to sit on the phone in Cleveland while Joe and Romeo sat with Kinney at the vet as she fell asleep was the hardest and most gut wrenching night I've ever had as an adult. If I were an actor, and needed to go to my "unhappy place," picturing that night would be my trigger.
I asked John if he had someone to go with him to vet, and thankfully he already did. I really don't know if I could have handled going with him, especially since I'm home alone this week (Joe's on vacation in Florida).
I guess I need to be satisfied that these two sisters are no longer suffering. Though their bodies failed them during their time with us, they were always greatly loved and are dearly missed. Now the sisters are together, running and chasing through the clouds, barking, growling, knocking over, licking, and covering each other with slobber. May they each find tennis balls where ever they look.