A little tender
May. 26th, 2005 10:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
drewanMy muscles are a bit sore today. It's not debilitating soreness, but I'm aware of it when I move. I'd probably feel better if I was moving more, but my sedentary job requires me to sit in front of my computer most of the day. I've been trying to take lots of little breaks to get up and walk around.
When I had my consultation with the trainer on Monday, she calculated my body fat percentage which turned out to be 18%, which is on the upper end of Fitness, or on the low end of Acceptable depending on what chart you're looking at.
I've been feeling pretty fat lately. Just is just a feeling of being relatively fat... compared to my body 10 years ago. Yeah, some of you will point out that I was a skinny geek when I was younger, which I'm glad I'm not now.
I know there are a bit of strange self-image issues going on. I guess like most people, and especially media influenced American gay men, I have a love hate relationship with my body. I like how I look, but I'm the first to point out my flaws.
During my recent Body Electric class, one of the listening exercises involved our telling our class partner some of our concerns about our own bodies. I talked about my dislike of my love handles. How I wish I could just simply removed them from my body.
But! At the same time I love my body... love handles and all. While one of my inner voices is screaming "No! Hide! They mustn't see the horror!!!" when I find myself in a situation where my body is exposed, but my stronger nature is saying "Fuck it! I have a good body." I'm no model, but I am a healthy 32 year old American man who manages to not fill my body with junk. Now I'm finally trying to re-establish a pattern of getting off my ass in an effort to improve my body.
Ok, I'm rambling now.
When I had my consultation with the trainer on Monday, she calculated my body fat percentage which turned out to be 18%, which is on the upper end of Fitness, or on the low end of Acceptable depending on what chart you're looking at.
I've been feeling pretty fat lately. Just is just a feeling of being relatively fat... compared to my body 10 years ago. Yeah, some of you will point out that I was a skinny geek when I was younger, which I'm glad I'm not now.
I know there are a bit of strange self-image issues going on. I guess like most people, and especially media influenced American gay men, I have a love hate relationship with my body. I like how I look, but I'm the first to point out my flaws.
During my recent Body Electric class, one of the listening exercises involved our telling our class partner some of our concerns about our own bodies. I talked about my dislike of my love handles. How I wish I could just simply removed them from my body.
But! At the same time I love my body... love handles and all. While one of my inner voices is screaming "No! Hide! They mustn't see the horror!!!" when I find myself in a situation where my body is exposed, but my stronger nature is saying "Fuck it! I have a good body." I'm no model, but I am a healthy 32 year old American man who manages to not fill my body with junk. Now I'm finally trying to re-establish a pattern of getting off my ass in an effort to improve my body.
Ok, I'm rambling now.
